Hello dear one,
Thank you for being here- in this life with me. Without you there would be one less fractal of color, one less ray of light feeding me- feeding everything because we are so intricately connected and everyone is needed. So, to you I bow for braving the descent Earthbound, to touch what every star in Heaven desires to touch and taste -Mother, honey, fire, water shaping itself around you and in you, drenching you in sensation, nourishment, pleasure, beauty. Breathing you as you breathe another moment alive.
Because this journey requires such bounty to stay upright and walk the path back home to heart and soul-without the honey why would you bother? Deep down you know why you are here. It may not come as a direct revelation, but there is an itch to stay alive- to see “it” unveil itself- to see the story all the way through despite the conditions of your life. There is always more love at play in your life than anything else or you would not be here -willingly buoying yourself in the Ocean of Life’s storms.
I know these times are hard, wild and unknown. It is within the shift of perception, from one of great fear to great opportunity, that you can begin to understand that your fractal is a key in this profound moment of evolution. That the dissolution of the stagnant status quo is the hand of Life, the feminine blueprint, Mother honey coming in to show you a love you were forced to believe you lost, was stolen, is reserved for those other stories about life. How this story goes is, and has always been up to you. But to change a story you [must] step out of the stagnant waters and into the evolutionary flow and follow what has always inspired new life to grow.
Evolution is a birthright. You are designed to shape-shift, outgrow and shed the stories that don’t serve you any longer and to become more of you, the true you, the one that you have always been, under the limiting and life strangling narrative of sin.
Sounds like an old prophecy of a promise land, somewhere far away and only if you obey certain rules. But the only rule to morph your fractal into a full brilliant beam that also guides others home, is to listen to your deepest desires and follow them.
Every day I take a deep breath ask “what would love do today, which desire brings me closer to my highest good?”. I know that when I ask, listen and follow, everything conspires in my favor by revealing all that keeps me from listening to my heart’s highest truth. My shadows, my fears, my wounds, my inherited traumas, my victimhood, my addictions, my impulses will all come out to play, because if I don’t know them and how they snag me into repeated stagnant stories, I will never understand their medicine in helping me to choose another way- and evolve… into love.
So, I am shapeshifting my way of interacting with the outside world and allowing myself to take the vital and terrifying leap into writing “as a living” and leading by way of stories that hopefully inspire you as I share the depths of this revelatory, harrowing and gorgeous life journey- turning trauma into a love story- the pathway of the healer.
I have moved my platform here to Substack so that I can be more full of myself- haha.
You can leave now if this does not suit you. Or, you can take the plunge with me and see if what I offer inspires you to seek the Mother Honey way home of your soul.
I will be sending monthly newsletters with simple musings and my offerings for everyone.
This is a space to write the stories together. To receive inspiration that brings your spirit alive.
“When was the last time you sang? When was the last time you danced? When was the last time you sat in silence with yourself? When was the last time you told or heard a story that changed you? - Principles of Shamanic Healing
If you choose to support a woman’s dream in a way that brings its full potential as a life sustaining path, and for the price of a cuppa coffee now in most US cities, you will gain intimate access to my journey, essays, personal stories from my soul rendering commitment to writing my memoir (I hired a powerhouse mentor so it’s real and I am fucking, terrifyingly in love with myself for it).
My voice speaks many tongues and archetypes, always through the lens of direct experience of my life and those of my clients and community. I write, for the greater good even if it is gritty and wet and witchy and makes you slightly uncomfortable- especially if it lands on your heart, but your mind can’t make sense- then we are opening new portals of potential, repatterning possibilities together.
AND- as a paid subscriber you will join a private Q&A community where I will be answering a handful of questions from you, the reader, the seeker, the dreamer. You will get direct intuitive, embodied insights that only come by way of asking the question itself. They will be personalized, yet anonymous and always for the collective- because that thing in you- is in me and everybody. They will come by video, writings, meditations- I don’t know but I sense it will be full.
Essentially you get mentorship and, hopefully, a torchlight to guide your path until you remember that you are the torch bearer.
Here’s the deal, I don’t want to write things “at you”. I want to write with you. I have never been good at self promotion and “launching myself” (painful) because the ways of Right Relationship require the question, the need, the desire expressed by another for me to engage in sharing reflections, wisdom, guidance. It is a fine line between sharing my gift- because it is the most important thing to share our gifts and let all know “hey I am here and this is what I bring to the banquet”- and projecting something at you I think you need- you have everything you need.
In this exchange, if you choose to embark on this journey with me, lives the third thing between you and me that was not alive before. Your heart shares a desire, a hurt, a confusion, presents a question -and a whole magical alchemy happens where something within me is inspired by your approach to the altar, and a wisdom is revealed for YOU, weaving a new way. We are on a circle together, you and me and the community who chooses to exchange a little dough for -who knows what because it doesn’t come fully alive without you.
As Leah Lamb- badass Story Keeper and Myth Maker, says-(in my words) the story itself comes alive through the audience. The energies and archetypes in all souls present feed the wisdom, open the oracle and allow magic to be made.
Being a paid writer, a fully supported writer, is my dream. I have many talents, but the gut wrenching (the real genius always gnaws at you) gift I have not let myself explore, which is how I know it’s the real deal, is writing (and music). Your exchange literally brings that dream alive- because you are essentially hiring me to inspire something to life in you. But you will only get out of it what you put in, money, time, curiosity and your questions for me. Exchange is a key that opens doors between two things to birth a third- tantric alchemy.
This is a new way of being that involves all parties to bring alive the healing and step into living by the life changing laws of reciprocity. What is alive in you that simply needs a mirror?
Use this space- see what happens. I am going to do it anyhow, but it would be better together. I would love to see you at the altar.
PS- you can always unsubscribe at any time. I don’t want anyone to be engaged with things that don’t serve them.
And for everyone- I am an open book (for the most part- some things must stay close) and am always open to learning and expanding my views. So, here is a feedback form for you to share what might serve you, what doesn’t serve you or let me know how inspired you are.
I will still be writing some relevant essays on my website which is also where you can learn more about my offerings. But this space here is for the writer, the artist, the unveiling of deeper dimensions of my inner being and for you to interact with me if you choose to join the deeper journey.
I love this life. I love this life. Every stripping down and falling apart has put me back together in the form of what I was told was some unreachable thing outside of me.
Nothing- nothing is outside of you. Welcome home. Thank you for your support.
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